So here I am at 9:32 on a Thursday night - kids are with their Dad and I am getting some alone time. Sounds good right?? Well it always sounds good when you can't have it!

My daughter has autism and let me tell you sometimes I definitely need a break - but usually a afternoon will do me. Now I won't lie and pretend I don't enjoy sleeping in my own bed since the Princess requires that I sleep with her and normally sleeps until 5:30 or 6 at best. I will also admit that as much as I was ready for this separation I do miss hearing my kids with their Dad. I miss that after I had the princess to sleep I would get up to watch a little TV and hear my son and his Dad laughing together.

I miss alot of things about being a family in that house. I mainly just miss being that family when it was good.

I look forward to finding my footing here and defining what my new definition of our family will be.

But tonight - I am lonely.